Day 3 of writing every day in May

Who am I?
I wonder
and question.
I've been trying to figure it out
because I don't think I understand
I don't get the question?
I am a mom
to three adult children.
I have twin boys and a daughter
who got married last October
so I have a fabulous daughter-in-law too.
I am a wife
to a Sergeant in the police department.
We have been together
since I was 24.
I love him dearly,
I don't want to be with anyone else,
except maybe myself,
but I don't know if I LOVE him.
There's a difference
and I don't know what that means
for me.
I am a daughter
who feels the same about my parents.
It makes me feel guilty
and conflicted,
it makes me wonder,
and it makes me sad.
I am a sister
the oldest of three.
I see my parents more,
my brothers live out of state.
I am not the favored one
although we are always told
there are no favorites.
Even my children know, we have always known,
that's not true.
We are not the favored.
I am a bagpiper.
well.....
I used to be.
Thanks, Anxiety and Depression.
I play just for myself now
on an island. 
I play for seagulls and boats passing by.
I am an artist.
I am a Painter.
I am a Weaver and
a Writer and
an Explorer and
a Linguist and
I love my cat, Dusty.
I am not the same as normal.
I don't know what that word even means.
I have always felt off,
different,
always missing......something.
​Who am I?