1st Day of Write Every Day for May fundraiser for the American Cancer Society

Scary

I've been thinking maybe
I shouldn't have done this.
It's scary,
but not as scary as 
applying for art school
at the age of 51.
Not as scary as
actually going to art school.
Not as scary
as being in classes with 18-21 year olds
when that age group
terrifies you
even as an adult
because it brings up bad memories
of being teased
and bullied
and pushed into bushes
when you were ten
but were taller than the teenagers
bullying you.
Not as scary
as presenting your senior thesis
to the faculty
the students
the Board members.....it's ok
all the seniors have to do it.
We are all scared
but we do it because we all know
it's a requirement for graduation
​and that makes it less scary.